Although I've remembered this moment since it happened, I found a piece of paper today where I'd written down this thing I wanted to make sure I'd remember for ever, and today it got to me. "You can be anything you want to be," it said. My mum had said it to me, and I was, as I still am, so grateful for her words.
It's less than a week until results day for me (I'm really sorry if you keep hearing this and are trying to forget). The result of opening that envelope can determine a lot; it also doesn't have to.
You can be anything you want to be.
I want to take her saying this in a more literal sense and a less literal sense.
More literal sense
I really want a career in writing. In my head there are many obstacles, but my mum wouldn't see them if I voiced where I want my life to go. Position. Talent. Fear. These are my obstacles. If I thought more about it, there would be many more obstacles, but right now, I don't want to imagine any more.
In the more literal sense, my mum would tell me that these obstacles don't exist and when I really think about it, they don't. Ignoring big, big dreams, I'd love to be a plethora of different writers. My mum would even tell me my wish-on-a-star dream is possible. Why shouldn't it be? Ignoring my pessimistic side... Why can't I be anything I want to be?
Less literal sense
I think I'm (un-egotistically) going to consider myself a writer from now on.
My mum may not have meant this, but I don't see why I shouldn't. I adore writing with all of my heart. I write a lot, and I love writing a lot. It's one of my favourite things ever, and I don't think a career title should define something. I don't have the career title. I'm still a writer.
The point of this post
I'm many things. A friend; a sister; someone who laughs; someone who loves McFly; someone who reads. And as of today: an (un)official writer!
Be anything you want to be. Reach for the stars; whatever the stars you choose may be. We may as well, mightn't we?
Beach Walks & Old Photographs,
The Girl in the Moonlight.