Dougie Poynter's perfection is impossible to describe with any language's dictionary so I won't try and "proud" doesn't do justice to the emotion I am feeling today. 2 years sober...
Being a fan of McFly, living my life with them and their music has been the most natural thing for me, but when Unsaid Things...Our Story was released, I was in no way prepared for Dougie's chapter: the "lowest point" of his life. I was a mess, that was for sure, but more than that I was proud. Dougie, one of my four heroes had overcome something so sad and had made himself and all of his fans immensely proud.
I was in a mess of my own making...
Sat, statue-like in my living room, I was incredibly sad reading about what Dougie went through and his thoughts and feelings, but, now, 2 years on, 2 years sober, I smile.
My time of sobriety has been the best of my life.
In Unsaid Things...Our Story, when Dougie had said to Harry that it was "too late", for a moment I was reading a novel, the world and what I knew to be true forgotten. Those two words seemed, not only relevant to that specific night but to how he felt about his life and, for a girl who sits at her laptop, listening to McFly albums on repeat next to her posters, it's safe to say, I was living it with him for that moment his sadness was mine too.
Sobriety isn't always easy. I go through patches when I know I'm more likely to relapse, but I take things one day at a time.
Maybe, those who aren't fans won't quite understand the severe sadness I felt and the incredible happiness I feel right now, but I don't care. I know Galaxy Defenders do.
I'm in recovery, and I will be for as long as I stay clean, which I intend to be for the rest of my life.
It's not always easy, but McFly's here forever,
Stars & Dreams,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
Saturday, 16 February 2013
Friday, 15 February 2013
The Summer Promise
Due to it being February and therefore the weather is rainy and grim or crisp and unbearable, it is safe to say I think of The Summer Promise more often than I probably should and I do not doubt that I am not the only one. When I was younger The Summer Promise was the six weeks that concluded the school year and was a time to eat ice-cream all day with my friends or just be bored all day. It would be perfect. As I became older I, like a lot of teenagers got caught up in the fantasy of the perfect summer. I am a huge book, music and film fan and they often create the picture of sandy beaches and strawberry-picking and, obviously, a beautiful romance.
Reality, however, is often incredibly different: boring English weather with the occasional glimpse of sun; a lack of motivation; the complete contradiction to how it should be.
I want to make daisy-chains, sit on the beach and listen to music and, more importantly I want to have no worries. Instead, the ominous mist of exams and pressure is spread out before me. A shadow of gloom and doom. It will pass though and between now and summer we will have English early, promising bursts of outrageously warm summer days and I, for one, cannot wait.
The Summer Promise will still be pumping through my veins throughout the months of February, March and early April: the expectation of Ryan Gosling sweeping me off my bare feet with an anklet; staying up with friends with ginger beer and pizza (I am definitely picturing a Mallory-Towers-esque scene); endless pretty clothes. Oh well.
And I'll keep holding on to The Summer Promise with my winter-coloured hands,
Lemonade & Sequins,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
P.s. We're all in this together (you sang it, don't deny it: GO WILDCATS).
Reality, however, is often incredibly different: boring English weather with the occasional glimpse of sun; a lack of motivation; the complete contradiction to how it should be.
I want to make daisy-chains, sit on the beach and listen to music and, more importantly I want to have no worries. Instead, the ominous mist of exams and pressure is spread out before me. A shadow of gloom and doom. It will pass though and between now and summer we will have English early, promising bursts of outrageously warm summer days and I, for one, cannot wait.
The Summer Promise will still be pumping through my veins throughout the months of February, March and early April: the expectation of Ryan Gosling sweeping me off my bare feet with an anklet; staying up with friends with ginger beer and pizza (I am definitely picturing a Mallory-Towers-esque scene); endless pretty clothes. Oh well.
And I'll keep holding on to The Summer Promise with my winter-coloured hands,
Lemonade & Sequins,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
P.s. We're all in this together (you sang it, don't deny it: GO WILDCATS).
Thursday, 14 February 2013
25 Facts About Me
1. I have incredibly big soft spots for the actors Zac Efron, Josh Hutcherson, Andrew Garfield, Robert Downey Jr, Benedict Cumberbatch, Gerard Butler and Josh Duhamel.
2. Star Wars Battlefront 2 will be my favourite video game forever (although I do love Assassin's Creed and Nintendo games!).
3. I can be intimidated by scary people quite easily and this is why I try very hard to be welcoming to everyone (other than to the intimidating, scary people).
4. The first youtuber that I properly stalked and loved was Christina Grimmie, aka "zeldaxlove64".
5. I love hats with the faces of animals on (sounds creepy in writing).
6. Going to the theatre is one of my favourite things.
7. I have very farfetched dreams about the future and so have no idea what I want to do "when I am older".
8. I love chocolate very much and do not intend to stop.
9. Shopping for clothes is my weakness.
10. I really like flowers and my favourite changes weekly (daisies are my faves at the mo!).
11. Christmas is my favourite time of the year and the Christmassy-magicy-feeling, for me will never be lost and I love snow (it's magical), however summer-weather is the bestest.
12. Some days I wear quite boyish, geeky clothes, then the next I'll be wearing girly-50s clothing and then I'll be wearing smart, blazer-like clothing.
13. I love Converse.
14. I've always wanted to be able to sing.
15. Saint Kidd (< my absolute favourite!), Zukie, Truffle Shuffle, Topshop, Urban Outfitters and H&M are my favourite clothing shops.
16. I can get quite nervous at random as well as understandable things, although I can get overly nervous.
17. In general, the only things I properly cry about are McFly and sad things that happen to those closest to me.
18. I go to bed incredibly early and at weekdays I will be rather on edge if I'm not in bed by 9o'clock.
19. Miranda makes me very happy.
20. I love pretty places with lovely rivers and greenery.
21. I am a soap-watcher.
22. Although being with my friends is one of my favourite things, sometimes all I want is to be by myself as in I enjoy my own company.
23. I enjoy working hard but yet my favourite days are those spent in comfy clothes doing virtually nothing as well as eating too much.
24. My i-Pod music ranges from AC/DC to the Hairspray soundtrack.
25. McFly are my everything and they will never understand how much I...cherish them!
Strawberry laces & Raindrops,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
2. Star Wars Battlefront 2 will be my favourite video game forever (although I do love Assassin's Creed and Nintendo games!).
3. I can be intimidated by scary people quite easily and this is why I try very hard to be welcoming to everyone (other than to the intimidating, scary people).4. The first youtuber that I properly stalked and loved was Christina Grimmie, aka "zeldaxlove64".
5. I love hats with the faces of animals on (sounds creepy in writing).
6. Going to the theatre is one of my favourite things.
7. I have very farfetched dreams about the future and so have no idea what I want to do "when I am older".8. I love chocolate very much and do not intend to stop.
9. Shopping for clothes is my weakness.
10. I really like flowers and my favourite changes weekly (daisies are my faves at the mo!).
11. Christmas is my favourite time of the year and the Christmassy-magicy-feeling, for me will never be lost and I love snow (it's magical), however summer-weather is the bestest.
12. Some days I wear quite boyish, geeky clothes, then the next I'll be wearing girly-50s clothing and then I'll be wearing smart, blazer-like clothing.13. I love Converse.
14. I've always wanted to be able to sing.
15. Saint Kidd (< my absolute favourite!), Zukie, Truffle Shuffle, Topshop, Urban Outfitters and H&M are my favourite clothing shops.
16. I can get quite nervous at random as well as understandable things, although I can get overly nervous.
17. In general, the only things I properly cry about are McFly and sad things that happen to those closest to me.18. I go to bed incredibly early and at weekdays I will be rather on edge if I'm not in bed by 9o'clock.
19. Miranda makes me very happy.
20. I love pretty places with lovely rivers and greenery.
21. I am a soap-watcher.
22. Although being with my friends is one of my favourite things, sometimes all I want is to be by myself as in I enjoy my own company.
23. I enjoy working hard but yet my favourite days are those spent in comfy clothes doing virtually nothing as well as eating too much.
24. My i-Pod music ranges from AC/DC to the Hairspray soundtrack.
25. McFly are my everything and they will never understand how much I...cherish them!
Strawberry laces & Raindrops,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
Saturday, 9 February 2013
My Dandelion Dreams
I have always been a dreamer: I dream when I am incredibly busy; I dream when I am laying in bed at night; I dream when I am procrastinating.
*Wish: A desire for something/something to happen.
Dream: An image of the perfect setting/life imagined by the dreamer.
I have always taken my wishes extremely seriously. Whether it be a Birthday-candle wish, a "wish upon a star" wish or a dandelion wish, you will be sure to find in that precious moment that I will believe that my wish will turn into reality. My wishes, in turn are part of the bigger picture: the dream.
It is dandelions that I believe hold the most importance. I pick up dandelions only if they are already out of the ground and when I do I find it so liberating. This isn't some weird spiritual post, I just love the feeling of having the dandelion raised, close to your lips before making a wish and blowing it into the seeds, your wish in the hands of the wind and the seeds.
Wishes really are as simple as that.
Sandcastles & Turtles,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
*Handmade definitions.
A post about Dreaming.
*Wish: A desire for something/something to happen.
Dream: An image of the perfect setting/life imagined by the dreamer.
I have always taken my wishes extremely seriously. Whether it be a Birthday-candle wish, a "wish upon a star" wish or a dandelion wish, you will be sure to find in that precious moment that I will believe that my wish will turn into reality. My wishes, in turn are part of the bigger picture: the dream.
Wishes really are as simple as that.
Sandcastles & Turtles,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
*Handmade definitions.
A post about Dreaming.
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
Gay Marriage
I have never understood why homosexuality is a controversial issue. I do not say this naïvely and nor do I say it in a butter-doesn't-melt kind of way. It has always been clear to me: gay, bi, straight, the foundations are the same. To me, I believe it should be equally surprising if someone is gay, bi or straight. Maybe I hope the world can be seen in a more beautiful colour, but homophobia, is categorically wrong. Hence, homosexuality should not be considered wrong. Of course, everyone has an opinion. My opinion is that those who believe homosexuals should not have equal rights and therefore the same opportunities is wrong. Frankly, it is disgusting.
I sit, trying to consider the opposite argument, be tentative, but I can say with confidence that I physically cannot. I would be less opinionated if I was someone who could not see it so black and white. Yet I do and so will not apologise. How is it 2013, where new, exciting technology is no longer a surprise, where walking down the street without sending a virtual message is impossible and the concept of gay marriage is alien to some?
"Boy meets girl" results in no eyebrows raised; throw "boy meets boy" or "girl meets girl" into the equation and suddenly the idea becomes all the more complicated. Apparently. What is all the more frustrating is that I cannot depict strongly enough the amount my head begins to hurt attempting to put into words how simple the subject is and yet that is all it should take: "It. Is. Simple."
"Love" to so many is a beautiful, delicate movement of two people being besotted with the other. The majority, I take an uneducated, bitter guess would picture a couple consisting of two different genders. Now, this, I can not feel angry about. This is how generations so far have been brought up. Why though, should this be the case? Why, after being told a story of two people, so caught up in the motion of love does it become ugly when informed the couple were indeed of the *gasp shock horror* same sex?
As taught from many years of education, "I" should not be used in a persuasive piece, just facts, figures and tentative analysis. However, this should not need educating: same sex marriage is the same as opposite sex marriage. Furthermore, this should not have to be a case that needs to be persuasive.
Following the "tentative analysis" should be an assured conclusion and I assure you, there should be no more doubt around same sex marriage.
Stop this craziness now.
Daisies & Clouds,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
I sit, trying to consider the opposite argument, be tentative, but I can say with confidence that I physically cannot. I would be less opinionated if I was someone who could not see it so black and white. Yet I do and so will not apologise. How is it 2013, where new, exciting technology is no longer a surprise, where walking down the street without sending a virtual message is impossible and the concept of gay marriage is alien to some?
"Boy meets girl" results in no eyebrows raised; throw "boy meets boy" or "girl meets girl" into the equation and suddenly the idea becomes all the more complicated. Apparently. What is all the more frustrating is that I cannot depict strongly enough the amount my head begins to hurt attempting to put into words how simple the subject is and yet that is all it should take: "It. Is. Simple."
"Love" to so many is a beautiful, delicate movement of two people being besotted with the other. The majority, I take an uneducated, bitter guess would picture a couple consisting of two different genders. Now, this, I can not feel angry about. This is how generations so far have been brought up. Why though, should this be the case? Why, after being told a story of two people, so caught up in the motion of love does it become ugly when informed the couple were indeed of the *gasp shock horror* same sex?
As taught from many years of education, "I" should not be used in a persuasive piece, just facts, figures and tentative analysis. However, this should not need educating: same sex marriage is the same as opposite sex marriage. Furthermore, this should not have to be a case that needs to be persuasive.
Following the "tentative analysis" should be an assured conclusion and I assure you, there should be no more doubt around same sex marriage.
Stop this craziness now.
Daisies & Clouds,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
Monday, 4 February 2013
Dreaming
It is so easy to get caught up in fantasy worlds, I believe. Those influential are often known to depict thoughts of nothing being bigger than the subject in question, that any dream is doable, that if one has the willpower then one will succeed. And we, let's face it, believe them. "Why couldn't I quit my job and become...?", "Why shouldn't I...?" I wish there was an answer which satisfied our obvious want to reach higher than we possibly can.
I often find myself dreaming of a farfetched job where I face no problems, just a girl in a room exploring places and creating people or words that paint a metaphorical picture matching the one in my mind. Here I find myself asking myself in a hopeful, yet strained tone, "Why do I have to fit in with 'the norm'?". Reality, however hits me like a tonne of sour, stubborn bricks. Songs, movies and books create, for me the ideal world. A place where "twists and turns" will be overcome. I would have no need to worry about it; just sit back and relax as the problem unfolds. Soon it will be over. Soon will be your Happy Ever After.
Happy Ever After? Many assign thoughts of love and family with the latter phrase. Well, yes, as do I. However being a young adult, as of now, it is my future career that defines my state of mind. With no clear plan ahead of me, only the shadow of too many fairytales (which I do not regret) and musicals, I sit infront of a computer screen, the words of Taylor Swift "dream impossible dream" contrasting with a former teacher's words: "you won't challenge the norm. You're from working-class backgrounds...". Inspiring, I know right?
Yet, as I type this I'm saddening at my pessimistic tone. Why isn't it possible for a girl to dream? Why shouldn't we all be encouraged to dream "outside of the box"? The answer is probably society. And authority. Why should we listen to society and authority? Now, I am not suggesting a rebellion. Merely a simple thought: "why can't I have a fairytale start (why would I want a "fairytale-ending?)?".
So I shall dream. I shall wish. I do believe in dreaming, I do, I do.
Bluebells & Pebbles,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
I often find myself dreaming of a farfetched job where I face no problems, just a girl in a room exploring places and creating people or words that paint a metaphorical picture matching the one in my mind. Here I find myself asking myself in a hopeful, yet strained tone, "Why do I have to fit in with 'the norm'?". Reality, however hits me like a tonne of sour, stubborn bricks. Songs, movies and books create, for me the ideal world. A place where "twists and turns" will be overcome. I would have no need to worry about it; just sit back and relax as the problem unfolds. Soon it will be over. Soon will be your Happy Ever After.
Happy Ever After? Many assign thoughts of love and family with the latter phrase. Well, yes, as do I. However being a young adult, as of now, it is my future career that defines my state of mind. With no clear plan ahead of me, only the shadow of too many fairytales (which I do not regret) and musicals, I sit infront of a computer screen, the words of Taylor Swift "dream impossible dream" contrasting with a former teacher's words: "you won't challenge the norm. You're from working-class backgrounds...". Inspiring, I know right?
Yet, as I type this I'm saddening at my pessimistic tone. Why isn't it possible for a girl to dream? Why shouldn't we all be encouraged to dream "outside of the box"? The answer is probably society. And authority. Why should we listen to society and authority? Now, I am not suggesting a rebellion. Merely a simple thought: "why can't I have a fairytale start (why would I want a "fairytale-ending?)?".
So I shall dream. I shall wish. I do believe in dreaming, I do, I do.
Bluebells & Pebbles,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
Friday, 1 February 2013
Billy and Me
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With my copy of "Billy and Me" pre-ordered and ready for the 23rd May of this year, I am not sure as to whether I am fully prepared to weep at the romance and beauty of what I know will be perfection by Giovanna Fletcher. Information on Amazon:
When you've got the dream boyfriend everything should be perfect, right?
So why isn't it? wonders Sophie May.
When Sophie and Billy met and fell in love, she thought she was living in a fairytale.
After all, Billy is an actor, a teen heartthrob adored by girls around the world - and he loves Sophie. She's the only girl for him.
But being on Billy's arm comes at a price. Their relationship has thrown Sophie right in the spotlight after years of shying away from attention.
Can she handle the constant scrutiny that comes with being with Billy? But most of all, is she ready for her secret heartbreak to be found out and shared with the nation?
Charming, heartwarming and utterly romantic, Billy and Me will completely capture your heart.
Link to pre-order: http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/1405909951/ref=s9_simh_gw_p14_d3_i1?pf_rd_m=A3P5ROKL5A1OLE&pf_rd_s=center-2&pf_rd_r=1TQNM7F6NX0MHWYMYNF4&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=358549767&pf_rd_i=468294
Waiting to have a copy of this book will be a heart-warming torture and I shall embrace it every day! Giovanna's blog posts, tweets and photos are awesome and so I do not doubt for one second that this will be the perfect recipe coated in lots and lots of sugar-drops.
Sunsets & Shooting Stars,
The Girl in the Moonlight.
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